Saturday, July 18, 2009
Went to find job for industry attachment.. went to ask Recoil and Messy.. hopefully one of them i am choosen and if not i would ask teacher to find for me.. went to eat long john.. didnt eat finish cos dun have appetite.. i just remember she likes to eat cheese sauce.. hais. duno when can eat long john with her again... then went to orchard.. but no avail.. then went home.. feel so sick and i tot i got fever.. but i just feel so weak over my body.. maybe i am too depressed... she told me to give her a rest until tomorrow and give me a answer... i hope she will give me good news.. if she still choosen not to be with me.. then its fated.. i wont fan her. and i will leave then.. i still believe she has a place for me..i just feel everything is new if i be with her again.. i wish i can start afresh when i be with her again.. hope she get enough slp today.. i still miss her.. 1 week didnt see her.. hais..i think i have to wait for another 1 week or 1month? i just wan to see her..I just remember that my mother told me something.. "Just focus doing your task properly and correctly, do until to the fullest" "When you do your part and the others doesnt satisfied, its their other fault and not ur fault anymore.. its up to their consciense and not yours.." so i will just do my part to try to get her back now.. i just hope..i havent see her for 1week already..
